No Matter How You See Yourself, I Will Always Love You

You’re beautiful the way you are. And I wish you could see what I mean when I say that. I wish you could see what you mean to me. 

I know you think of yourself as a failure, I know you hate staring into the mirror because of having to see the person staring back, and I know you especially blame yourself for a lot of things that shouldn’t even trouble you.

But I just want to let you know that I think you’re magnificent. I think the world of you. I think you deserve the best love there is to offer, and I want you to be able to fulfill all your dreams and reach all of your goals, even if you aren’t ready to set any yet. I truly believe you’re the light that shines in darkness, like a lighthouse shining brightly through the fog, guiding sailors home. You have that power, and you definitely have the potential to be the man who I’ve always known you were, deep down inside.

You are a very guarded individual and I completely understand why. Having to experience abandonment and go through numerous experiences of having people leave you can be very traumatizing, and this can overall leave negative scars on your life. It is completely and totally valid why you push others away whenever they get close to you, and why you push and push until there’s no one left; I can understand that it stems from your fear of being abandoned first. 

But here’s the promise I’m going to make to you:

No matter your reasoning, no matter your excuses, I’m always going to love you. Always. And no matter what. Because you’re not the messed up person you think you are, and in fact you’re not a messed up person at all, and you are not defined by the experiences that shaped you. You’re a person who was simply dealt with an awful hand, someone who had to experience a lot of abandonment, heartache, and pain. You are a person who encountered difficult situations at a young age and you dealt with them in the only ways you knew how—that is not your fault at all. And most importantly, even though you’re a person who grew up in the worst of circumstances, you still evolved to be a kind and caring individual. You are still worthy and deserving of love. 

So no. I refuse to let you believe that you are the worst of your failures or others’ mistakes. I refuse to let you break yourself to the bone just because work is the only thing that keeps your mind off of what’s important. I will not let you blame yourself or sit in self-hatred just because you have made mistakes in the past.  

My promise to you is this: whether it’s yesterday, today, or tomorrow, I am not leaving. I will stay put. Because I am in love with you.