Missing You Today (And Every Day)
Today is a special day because my mom passed away 5 years ago. Itās still a sad day, but I think itās important to celebrate how much I have grown with my grief and in spite of my feelings of guilt for not being a better daughter. I love you, Mom, and I know you are always with me, in moments light and dark, eternally cheering me on.Ā
Missing you today
And every day
Some days, it doesnāt hurt
So much
And some days, you just need
Your motherās touchĀ
Iād gladly hold your hand
To cross the street
Iām sorry I didnāt want to
When I was sixteenĀ
Lost in my own world
Of teenage angst
The things I said were not myself
They were just a cry for help
From the anger that was consuming me
I felt like I was drowning in the sea
I couldnāt escape
Iām so sorry if I made you think
My heart was full of hateĀ
Sometimes we fought so much
I wished the ocean could separate us
For a day or two
Iām sorry if that hurt you
It hurt me, too
Iām sorry I didnāt stay
Left you for a university far away
But I donāt regret driving home
Every night you felt alone
I know it made you feel better
To sleep in my childhood bed
Your arm around my body
Your chin above my head
I wish I could have one more hug
Just one more laugh
One more bedtime story
Another Christmas
Another birthday
Another Valentines DayĀ
What I wouldnāt give
To live in childhood again
But itāll have to be all in my head
We canāt reverse a death
Iām sorry, I just miss you so much
I just miss being so loved
UnconditionallyĀ